[dated to September 15]
Sep. 11th, 2012 09:26 pmIt had seemed like the flu, at first. Saffron had been sure it would pass, had spent a day at home resting and drinking hot water with honey and lemon. That had been the day after she ran into Russell, but she'd refused to make the connection. By the time she resigned herself to it, it was already too late.
It had been too late the moment she'd touched him.
Now, her mind comes and goes, spotty and unreliable. She's walking down some street, familiar one second and a blur the next, and she keeps going back to the same thing. Blood. She wants to see it, wants to watch it spray red and wet across skin. She wants to get something, or maybe she can just use her fists, it doesn't really matter. She passes a brick wall, thinks about punching it, about the glorious red across the back of her hand that would be caused by her split knuckles.
She doesn't know what the hell is happening.
A moment of clarity strikes, and she thinks she might see about getting to the hospital. But then there's a pain in her hand, one she can't figure out, and she looks down to see she's got her hand clenched into a fist, her nails digging so hard into the skin of her palm it's a wonder she hasn't drawn blood.
Blood.
Saffron starts to walk again.
It had been too late the moment she'd touched him.
Now, her mind comes and goes, spotty and unreliable. She's walking down some street, familiar one second and a blur the next, and she keeps going back to the same thing. Blood. She wants to see it, wants to watch it spray red and wet across skin. She wants to get something, or maybe she can just use her fists, it doesn't really matter. She passes a brick wall, thinks about punching it, about the glorious red across the back of her hand that would be caused by her split knuckles.
She doesn't know what the hell is happening.
A moment of clarity strikes, and she thinks she might see about getting to the hospital. But then there's a pain in her hand, one she can't figure out, and she looks down to see she's got her hand clenched into a fist, her nails digging so hard into the skin of her palm it's a wonder she hasn't drawn blood.
Blood.
Saffron starts to walk again.